This Monday I decided was the day I would take some of my unused canvas’s into the college. I found a pretty cool spot in the corner facing the sunshine, so I’m very happy indeed, things may move and change and that’s okay too. I can imagine myself working there which is most important. The canvas’s I have were especially made for me, thicker frames with rough hessian. Under this is a kind of carpet underlay to make it thicker and stronger. I like this look, it reminds me of upholstery, interiors and natural fabrics. I would like to be able to make these myself once I have used these last ones up. I like to think I am quite ecological, but then we are often surprised and shocked, and I don’t claim to understand it all. I buy ecological cleaning products, organic foods as much as possible, and recycle, that still isn’t enough though. So this fabric makes me think or believe I am portraying a material that is eco-friendly. The paints I use at the moment may not be, but again I would like to research this. I covered 3 canvas’s in almost black undercoat. I dont like to start with white, it makes me feel uneasy, and blank, it doesn’t inspire me. I look at a colour, any colour and it will inspire me to think something. its funny I have mentioned this, but whilst composing my power-point for my introduction it was suggested that I use a black background. A lot more pleasing to the eye. So there must be something in it. Some reasoning?
So my canvas’s are now there waiting for me to start, and I want to start with the method I’ve been using now on my paintings for the past 8 years or so, to get me going, comfortable and excited. I would like to put a few photographs in here but I havn’t quite figured that out yet.
The process I have been using is similar to cave paintings, very simple, using a cut out of a drawing and painting layers upon layers of oil paints and various other paints I can get my hands on. The reason I have done this I have just worked out is because to me my drawings are like my spellings. There is a right way and a wrong way to spell. To me there is a right way and a wrong way to draw. If it doesn’t look real or right I don’t like it. I did say before in my blog I felt I was hiding something I couldn’t do, ie; spell, so this is the same method, by using a stencil, I am hiding the fact I cannot draw. or think I cannot draw because I dont like the marks I make. If someone else has done it however I do like it. Not sure if that makes sense to you reading this. Its my lack of confidence in my own drawing skills. So my way around it is to cut it out and paint over it like a stencil. The stencils I have been working on for the past 8 years have also developed themselves. I had no pan of what I was going to paint, I just enjoyed the process. So this again is something I aim to do next, to plan the painting.
Yesterday I joined the Harrogate Decorative fine art group, I went to my first lecture which was about Romantic Modernism, Ravilious and Piper. I really did enjoy the lecture and felt transported into middle England in the 1930’s. I did feel a bit young to be there but I think the lecturers are so good it was worth it. Perhaps I could get my mother to join up? I was inspired by the faded colours that Ravilious used and I am sure they may influence my next couple of sketches or drawings. Tonight I am going to see Gouguin from the National Gallery, London at the Everyman Cinema. I love the colours Gouguin used and so excited to see it and that my daughter is coming with me.