This is not easy! If something is not going right I take it that it’s me that’s doing it wrong. That’s how I’ve probably been brought up to think everything is my fault and it’s therefore my responsibility to make it right. That’s not a good way to think all the time and I’m only just learning that at the ripe old age of 49! I try my best and I try to be better the next day and the next. My art is no different! I will try better tomorrow than today. I have been saying this for a long long time. I am scared of failure and I am scared of success. I sometimes think that to be successful I have to sacrifice something. A relationship perhaps? Or time with my children? A clean organised house? These are the three most important things in my life besides art and I want to try and keep these going while I aim for success for the first time in along time.